My devotion this morning tasked me with writing about a time when God strengthened me to handle something that seemed impossible to me at the time. I have to chuckle because that time is every day.
Every day that I live with Cervical Dystonia, and every day as I grow older, God strengthens me to handle it. Some days I don’t even want to try. I’m tired of the pain, I’m tired of the struggle, I’m just plain tired. I am plagued by the voices in my head telling me to “Get up. You’re not hurt.” (Dad) and “it’s mind over matter.” (Grandma). These same voices tell me that I have to be productive. I have to DO something today. But, what if I really don’t?
I think one of the ways that God strengthens me is that He lets me cry, He lets me rest, and He tells me it’s okay. He gave me an EXTREMELY supportive and loving husband who does the same. God also reminds me of all the good that is in my life, and how much I enjoy life; my family, my friends, exercising my gifts and talents. He has given me SO much to enjoy and appreciate and I don’t want to let any of it go to waste.
I remember that when I was little I hated taking naps because I was afraid that I would miss out on something. I never wanted to be left out of the fun! I still kind of feel that way. I am definitely more appreciative of naps now, but I still don’t like to miss out on any of the fun. God made me with this innate desire to experience and enjoy as much of life as I possibly can. He made a lot of people that way, maybe even all of us and some of us have just learned to ignore it. It’s a fire in me though, and I think it’s a lot of what keeps me going. When I’m done crying, when I’m done resting, I go at it again. Sometimes, its’ not for very long before I need to rest again, but I have never given up completely and as long as I have Jesus in my corner, I won’t. The biggest way He strengthens me is by being in my life – by BEING my strength!